Selamat Hari Raya My Dearest Hazman

Assalamualaikum Hazman,

Abah, Mak and Abang Hazim would like to wish you a very Happy Hari Raya. Kindly forgive us for all our shortcomings towards you. We pray that you are always happy in your new place. Please pray for our happiness too. Till we meet again, sleep tight my dear son.

We shall always remember and miss you dearly....

Two years after you left us......24th July 2009

Assalamualaikum my dearest Hazman,

How are you my baby? I am very sure that you are in great health and happy in your new place. On the 24th July, 2009 I shall be hiking the highest mountain in South East Asia that is the Mount Kinabalu. This will also be the date that you depart from us...exactly 2 years ago...I chose this date without realizing it. It just slipped my mind...I am terribly sorry Hazman, for not being able to visit you on the 24th July, 2009. Please forgive me. No matter what, you are forever near to my heart and I think of you every second of my life. I shall bring your photos along and hike Mount Kinabalu with all the strength that you had given me. Please pray for my safety.

Till we meet again. Sleep tight my son. Miss and love you always.

From your mother,

Siti Miranda Kamaludin (Mimi)

teringat kat Hazman

hari ni hari khamis... semalam mak kata.. mungkin hari ni hari bapa... abah pun tak tau bila hari bapa... abah cuti dua minggu... minggu depan kerja semula...

tak semena-mena abah menangis bila tengok amazing race... ada satu budak pekak masuk race tu... host tanya... kenapa dia masuk race tu... dia kata sebab dia nak buktikan orang pekak pun boleh buat perkara yang orang normal boleh buat...

abah teringat jugak dalam american idol ada juga OKU yang masuk... dia buta tapi pandai menyanyi...

anak abah pun OKU... abah sedih tapi dalam masa yang sama juga abah gembira... sebab abah pasti Hazman sekarang berada di tempat yang paling menggembirakan.... beruntung sungguh anak abah....

dulu abah hampir hampir masuk navy... masa tu umur abah 18 tahun... itu 20 tahun yang lalu.. mungkin tuhan nak menyedarkan abah masa tu .. abah ter'tonton' dokumentari pasal OKU .... mereka tak ada tangan tapi mereka pandai betul buat raga hanya dengan jari kaki... abah fikir abah lebih normal dari mereka... tiada yang tidak normal pada abah.. sebab tu abah masuk U... walau abah minat betul dengan navy....

di U, abah jumpa mak....

mak + abah --> kami dapat abang Hazim.... lepas tu abah dapat Hazman....

lama abah menunggu kedua-dua anak ni... abah sayang abang Hazim sama macam abah sayang Hazman....

abah sayang sangat anak abah...

terima kasih kerana jadi anak abah... sampai jumpa lagi... abah rindu nak peluk Hazman.....

kepada semua bapa yang membaca blog ini saya ingin mengucapkan ribuan terima kasih dan selamat hari bapa...

selamat hari ibu juga kepada semua ibu yang membaca blog ini ...

terima kasih...

'Supposedly' Hazman's 3rd Birthday......... (13 April 2009)

From Mak:

Assalamualaikum my dearest son Hazmanuddin Bin Hishamuddin,

How are you my little one? I would like to wish you a very Happy 3rd Birthday. I just want to say that I love and miss you dearly.

Time flies but the memories of you will always linger in my mind. Your birth date (13 April 2006) was a major turning point in my life… I am terribly sorry that I still feel sore about the whole situation but at the same time I am grateful to Allah SWT. I am grateful to be one of the chosen parents to have a child that will be given a place in heaven. I know that you are in a better place and under such good care now. You are a blessed and lucky child my little Hazman. Even though I miss you very much, I am definitely happy and proud of my little Hero.

However as a mother, nothing can ever stop me from imagining… “if you were a normal child, you would have been talking, giggling, playing, walking, climbing and running now, just like any other normal children your age”…...

I just want to share with you that we have just transformed ‘your room’ temporary into your Abang Hazim’s room. Abang Hazim still calls that room ‘bilik adik (my little brother’s room)’. Your belongings are still intact in your blue cabinet and I still go through them from time to time.

Dearest Hazman, please forgive me and pray for my success in life. Till we meet again, sleep tight my son. You are always in my mind….every second of my life. Hope to meet you in my dreams.

Love always from your Mak (Siti Miranda Binti Kamaludin)

From Abah:

Assalamualaikum anak abah. :-)

Sayang anak abah. Rindu anak abah. :-)

Selamat hari lahir yang ketiga. :-)

Abah, abang dan mak akan sentiasa merindui Hazman.. :-) Sayang selalu.. pastinya anak abah bergembira sekarang.. :-) Tahun ini abang Hazim akan menyambut hari lahirnya yang ke-tujuh.. Dua anak abah dah besar nampaknya.. Tapi Hazman pastinya comel selalu.. :-)

Abah gembira untuk kalian berdua.. sayang selalu.. peluk cium dari abah.. :-)

Hazman's Blue Cabinet

Abang Hazim's temporary room

Abang Hazim holding Hazman's 1st Teddy Bear given by Mak Lang Liza

Some of Hazman's personal belongings

Message For Hazman

Assalamualaikum my dearest Hazman

I am sorry for not keeping in touch with you through your blog for quite some time.

I seek forgiveness from you because I know I was never a good mother to you.

Below are some of the memorable photos of you taken when you were with us.

No matter what happens, I will never stop loving and missing you my son.

I know you are in a better place but I still think of you every second of my life.

I will forever be in tears when I look at your lovely photos…………..

Sleep tight my son….

Let us walk through the memory lane………

That is all that I have of YOU………

Walking Down The Memory Lane With Hazman 13 April 2006 to 24 July 2007

Selamat Hari Raya My Dearest Hazman

Mak, Mama Azmah, Abang Armani & Abang Hazim

Abang Hazim & Abah (1 October 2008, 1 Syawal 1429)

Mak & Abang Hazim (1 October 2008, 1 Syawal 1429)